There are always two things to praise about on a Saturday afternoon in Robart: first, it’s half empty (which I choose to see as half full), second, it’s full of loosers like us.

Two nights before my mom phoned me, and told me about THE COUPLE who are coming to Toronto for visit. Surprisingly, THE baby of THE COUPLE is also coming along.

Is five years of age gap really a difference or it is the new life brought on a new dimension to life?

Considering it is not as difficult to get along with people with 10 years of difference toward either direction. Is being a mother, or parent so much difference than being individual?

“what career do you picture yourself as after graduation?”

“when do you plan to get married?”

“where would you like to settle after you are ‘done’?”

Well, it is not like I had completely not planning ahead of these but just right there, right on the dinner table, right in front of this family, I began to wonder about a little… this is it, this is everybody trying hard to win like the biggest 649 price and talk about what’s on sale at the costco market and while arguing whichever is the best district for education…while people in my district cannot even decide what to have for tomorrow’s lunch.

I had thought about it, where I would like to be, what position I should fulfill, when about I should get by various meaning, licenses in my life.

But this is too real, too bare, too flesh and bone, just right in front of me… of how life is and what life is meant to be…

It is not like I haven’t framed my picture with starting a family, packing the lunch for kids and driving them for soccer practice…or, according to you, basketball…

I thought I am not there yet to look back into history and sigh how time flies…but…

Not too long ago I can wander about where you take your chemistry class and greet to you during lunch hour…

And here I am three years of out of home, out of town, into the college, into the world…

Maybe I still need a little bit time, a little bit more room for growth, a little bit more potential for preparation…

 But then, I shall be ready upon time requests, and you shall be there, by my side, because I will be by your side as well,  as always... that is what I take and make, for granted, mon petite amie  :)